love_ducks

11:46 pm: 1. I'll respond with something that I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
4. I'll tell you my clearest memory of you.
5. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
7. If I could buy you anything in the world I would give you...
8. I'll tell you what I've always thought about your personality.
9. I'll tell you one thing I beleive you have (or have more) potential for.
10. I'll tell you one thing I think you could use for improvement.
94a. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST! (No, they're liars. You don't have to, no one will care.)

heh yeah i wasnt gonna write in my lj but i got dragged in against my will.
whatever though : D

12:03 am: fuck livejournal

03:21 pm: so its been four months....
so the surprise ben had for me today is going to have to wait until like next weekend due to a time constraint.
i think ill explode with anticipation before that.

08:37 pm: fighting mutant bugs.
documentaries on hydrogen and dna on pbs really pass the time.
"you are not here to be entertained. occasionaly i might tell a joke, but you are only here to learn so don't expect any fun"- mrs hall.
yeah so fuck biology
plus this chick who had somewhat of an (crazy) obsession with ben is in my bio class and she gives me dirty looks.
history seems like itll be a little harder than i expected but hopefully ill try harder.
health seems like itll be pretty fun.

the class-opener things where you say your name and things you like to do always make me feel bad because it just reminds me that i am extremely lazy and dont do anything.

birds.

10:28 pm: last night i dreamed i was dreaming of you
well tomorrow is my mo fuggin birthday.
the big ONE SIX (yeah niggah!)
so hopefully ill get my permit on like friday or something.
me and ben just celebrated our 3 month anniversary and i couldnt be happier.
how now brown cow.

CLASSES FOR NEXT HALF
odd day
gym-mr cilley
symphwinds-lewis
biology-hall
history-looisemore
even day
same but like inverted and i have health with mcmorrow and jazz instead of gym and sw.

any of you cool kids have classes with me?

fat matt moved to california.
scott works at toys are us and is starting college at quinsig soon

10:31 pm: FUCKING TITTIES
s'all i gots to say.


that and i had an absolutely wonderful day.

07:28 pm: racoon wounds
yeah so my computers been broken for like a month
so thats why im never online/updating this thing/myspacing

did i tell you guys im dating ben?
and by you guys i mean like no one cuz no one reads this
but anyone who DOES read it probly already knew anyways.
so yeah me and ben will be one month long on the tenth and you know what THAT means!

OLIVE GARDEN!!!!!!!!!
cuz its the most romantic place in the world.

life is gooooooood
<3

(oh and scott came home like a month ago)

12:57 pm: ha yeah... so about that..
ignore that last post
boys aren't THAT bad lol

<3

03:33 pm: fuck boys

06:59 pm: goodnews/badnews
the good news is scotts coming home because of his asthma
the bad news is scotts coming home because of his asthma

good news, now i wont miss my concert to go to his graduation in texas
bad news, im not going to texas

08:56 pm: thas right
yo, i had some batteries for my cd player last me from friday of last week to today, with me listening to it on an average of like 2 1/2 hours everyday.
they were the best batteries i ever had.

RIP man

(malibu show at the quinsigamond club, greenwood st woostah)
(be there)
(satadaynight)

10:22 pm: here kitty wear this lipstick!
i slept til 4:30 in the afternoon yesterday
beat that muthafuckas

if you ever want to read a book that will put you in one of the worst states of mind,
1984 is for you
(seriously, its a total downer)
i just finished reading it and like started crying.

but good news, scottys written us two letters and hes doing fine
im gonna see him in ONE MONTH!

10:34 pm: yeah i would definately kick her in the face
my head feels like a canteloupe in a soup can

i wish i had a cute boy to take a bubblebath with
and maybe a bathtub to take it in

07:33 pm: worst day EVER
fuuuuck
scotty left today which was like sadder beyond anything
daryl was even crying and you know that doesn't ever happen.
then i had to walk to the bus which always stresses me out cuz i think i missed the bus
i forgot my flute again
i didn't do any homework or anything i was supposed to do
and i fell asleep in all but one class.
and i looked like shit all day due to crying, humidity, and lack of hair straightening.

last night was fun though.
i hung out with scotty and all his friends for a really long time
they skateboarded while i watched
saw willie who is under house arrest. (if i worked at the post office i would steal all the birthday cards for the money)
the pizza guy at golden accused me and phil of stealing ice cream
(which resulted in a late night order for a big delivery to a now ex best friends house)
found a snake
threw rocks at stuff
listened to bad religion
caused trouble, you know
god i miss him already :(

but in good news erik got his own cingular store in athol which means better pay
give him a visit if your in the area

10:18 pm: blahhh
well i've been like insanely stressed about scotty's party and the fact that he's leaving for like 5-6 months on tuesday. (extremely fucking terrible)
myspace has been bringing in nothing but sadness
i only get 4 hours of sleep a night
i have 3 hours of math a day
and i think i lost my microwave.


but still i'm like the happiest person in the world at school.
i hate it

10:57 pm: i just realized something that made me happy
(and i mean this in a NOT like self centered narcisist way)
but i'm pretty hot sometimes

12:55 am: all nighters=really boring= surveys and such!
The Purity Test!

Start with 100%, take away 5% for everything you've done on this list.

1.) Smoked.
2.) Drank alcohol.
3.) Hooked up with someone while intoxicated.
4.) Done drugs.
5.) Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
6.) French kissed.
7.) Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
8.) Made out with 2 seperate people in a 12 hour period.
9.) Had sex and/or got really close to having sex.
10.) Shared a man/girl with 1 of your really close friends.
11.) Watched porn.
12.) Cheated on your boyfriend and/or girlfriend.
13.) Done any sexual act on school campus.
14.) Peed on someone's property and/or goverment property.
15.) Had sex and/or messed around in your room, while your parents aren't home.
16.) Had sex and/or messed around in a public place or somewhere with a least 1 person present.
17.) Given a blowjob and/or had a blowjob.
18.) Having someone of the opposite sex in your room.
19.) Been fingered and/or fingered someone.

yeah i dont know why theres only 19 of them but there are.
i got 15 percent by the way.
wow when they lay it all out like that i feel like a really bad kid

(yes dan im really going all night)

07:48 pm: do it like the trees!
yeah so i've had a much better few days.
warped tour on monday- most excellent!

and then from tuesday to today i was in nh.
now, i know i was really NOT looking foreward to it in past entries, but it ended up being awesome because mary remington came with me.
it seriously was like the most fun ive had all summer.
not only is mary one the coolest girls i know, shes also really down to earth and she loved our house up there so it made it better for me knowing she enjoyed it.
so everyday we would find some really cool spot and just sit then and enjoy life and nature and whatnot, read aloud from the shining, have really deep conversations... and smoke weed.
heres all the cool places we found to sit and smoke:
on a rock in a beautiful spot in the woods
on the edge of a park right by a duck pond
on the edge of a huge river
at this awesome spot on the side of the lake that we canoed to
on the top of a mountain with this huge bed of moss
on the back porch of another one of the summer home whos owners werent home.
really, these spots were just like beautiful and we would like look at the clouds, or the water, or the trees or bees or moss or whatever and just like love life.
i have a newfound appreciation for really chill weed, like stuff that doesnt get you all freaked out but it just makes you all mellow and happy.
(sorry for all of yous that dont approve)

let me tell you, there is a LOT of beautiful girls in hillsborough nh.
we spent the day there on thursday and i saw like 10 absoloutly gorgeous girls.
but then again there was also like a lot of really homely girls.

<3

12:04 am: i wish mosquitos weren't biting my feet
and i wish my parents weren't fighting (again)
today i ran (or attempted to) a mile and then walked about 3.
see, im trying to lose 10 pounds before school starts. ive already lost 5 of my 15 pould goal. so anyways ive been trying to eat better and less and exercise more and ive been doing it but my parents insist on bring me home bad foods like a veggie burger from bk and a ton of my favorite ice cream.
proof my family makes me fat.

in other news im making myself a backpack out of jeans.
and
i realized i have a bit of a crush on vince vaughn.
now i figured this out because i was very attracted to the salesman that was selling a woodstove to rachels parents and he kinda looked like vince vaughn (i got his buisness card tee hee)

tv makes me angry.
ive been feeling very down and lonely and moody lately.
like i feel really lonely but i dont wanna hang out with any of you fuckers cuz i hate everyone!!!!!! grrr!
not really (kinda)
like i feel all depressed kinda, but im pretty sure im one of those people who're "only happy when it rains)
you wanna hear about my new obsession? im ridin high upon a deep depression!
im only happy when it ra-INS! (thankyou garbage)

<3 for a limited time only certain children get prizes

10:20 pm: i will tell you in another life.. when we are both cats.
i've been in a very tom cruise mood lately
i just finished watching top gun and last night i watched vanilla sky.
top gun is good but kinda corney with a bad soundtrack and vanilla sky is MINDBLOWING.
seriously
see it if you haven't.
(i dont care how crazy people are making him out to be- tom cruise is still gorgeous)

i found a deer tick on me the other day, and it hasnt gotten the bullseye, but i cant be sure yet.

i have a new crush-
her name is isabelle
if any of you have possesion of the newest seventeen mag take a look, shes in the fashion section. pges 88,90, and 108
even though shes probly not the most beautiful girl ive seen, theres something about her that makes me want her.

i made $50 cleaning my house today cuz i had nothing better to do
plus! ive lost 5 pounds!
BUT- these are the 5 pounds ive gained since school got out